/ I have a letter stored on the Notes App on my phone
and it says ‘To You – In Case I Die’.
It lists all the things I want to tell you but can’t. /
/ I write lists in my head every day I don’t see you,
to remember everything I want to tell you
next time we do. /
/ Everyone who has known me before you
says they’ve never seen me this happy.
I have never seen myself this happy. /
/ I take endless amounts of pictures and videos of you
because I like to look back through the slideshow of our life together
and see how much you’ve grown. I’m so proud of you. /
/ I’m not saying I would jump off the Titanic for you
because it would make me seem crazy.
(But I would jump off the Titanic for you.) /
/ I write entire books
about how your skin always feels
like you have a whole forest fire burning underneath it. /
/ I’m learning how to be a better person.
Because of you.
Sometimes even for you. /
/ I’m getting my life together,
I’m trying to figure out who I am and what I want.
I want to make you proud. /
/ I write down every single loving thing you ever say to me
to remind myself how much I mean to you.
Even if you don’t tell me all the time. Just like I don’t tell you. /
