I want to fall in love
It doesn’t have to be like a fairytale
I just want someone to be there
To be able to see all of me and not look away.
I want someone to fall in love with me
They don’t have to be perfect of course
It’s impossible to do so anyway
I want to be worthy of love
I’ve tried to do so my whole life
I never seem to be enough for anyone
Or sometimes it’s that I’m too much
I want to have enough love in me
To be able to share it with all, generously
But I have never been able to, and never will be
Because I always tend to think practically
Why give love if I don’t get any back?
Why does it feel like I always lose?
Then I realized that it is not, in fact
Love that I’m giving, it was all a ruse
A desperate disguise that I didn’t recognize
Because in my mind, I was right
But in truth, it was only
A call to not be lonely
Since I knew that being with my thoughts only
Would someday lead to insanity
Then I must make a correction
I’ve realized my mistake
I want to fall in love
Fall in love with myself
