I promised myself in the middle of cascading tears that I will be happy
that my happiness no matter how small will be mine to create, maintain and fulfill
I promised myself to study and practice saying NO more
I have a heart that thrives on giving but I must be able to separate where I extend that giving
I promised myself that I will love my body
In every season
I promised myself to nurture my gift
I will never distract myself from my purpose with comparison or worry
I promised myself that my life will be one I am proud of
I promised myself that I would never exact any amount of pain towards anyone especially if they never had the same consideration for me
I promised myself that I would live despite any unfortunate circumstances
I really only get one shot at this so I won’t waste it being anxious
I promised myself that I will be open to receiving
I know I have a way of side-eyeing good things
I deserve good things
I promised myself that I will not, ‘it is what it is’ all the time
I will be vocal when it gets uncomfortable or clear lines have been crossed
Stop letting people finesse my good nature because of the culture of “she doesn’t mind”
I promised myself
I promised myself that love ever decided to show up, I’m gonna show out
I know I love myself enough to want to share some of this so whenever you’re ready God, do you
I promised myself to laugh more,
to keep being corny and weird
I promised myself to appreciate the art of letting go
Not everyone deserves your light in a growing season
Release the idea that we must travel together
This road is taking me where they cannot go
I promised myself that even if they come back, to keep them at arm’s length
They have to show me before I even consider past benefits
But
Even then, things will never be the same
I promised myself
I promised myself
I promised myself
To leave a lasting legacy
Through
Love
Compassion
And being everything I was created to be
I promised myself.
