Everyday I walk upon this earth
It feels like I’m walking on broken glass
In reality it’s just My trust for strangers and loved ones shattered all over the floor
And as you watch me walk and bleed after countless immense heartbreaks, some of which many people I’ve cared for have caused
I want you to look darkness in the eye for me
And tell it
I did not die
I look into the mirror
And I closely watch my reflection
I watch the woman on the other side
Shes Strong bruised and scared
From all the wars of trauma she fought
As I Look into her glassy eyes filled with tears
From being so goddamn tired
I reach into the mirror
whisper into the darknesses ear
and tell it
I did not die
when I’m buried six feet under
The weights of depression that lie on top of my chest
I push up into the light cough up negativity and inhale positivity I look up into the sky and yell to the universe
Tell the darkness I did not die
Even as hope for humanity
Has been constantly drained from my body
After being chained to my bed countless of times
Getting closer and closer to god taking me away
Even then I want you to tell the darkness
I did not die
Even when my mental state slowly drifts away as I suffer from constant grief for those I lost
I still manage to put my sanity back together
And think to myself
I want the darkness to know
I did not die
Never underestimate my strength
Never underestimate what I’m capable of
Because I’ve fought my different demons
Climbed out of many different hells
And still
I did not
And will not
Ever die at the hands of darkness
Even on days it strangles me harder than most
I still look darkness in the eye and tell it
I did not die
I’m a warrior inside and out
Nothing beats the sunflower and the light
That will grow inside of me
