Over the past few years, my health really deteriorated. I was in a constant battle of feeling depressed, lost and tired. I would gain 15 pounds one month, and two or three months later loose it all in a matter of two weeks. All this happened every year for about four years straight.
I was stressed, depressed and far from healthy. This year was the worst for me so far. I gained over 20 pounds in one month, and felt like I wanted to quit my dream. I had absolutely no desire to keep on going in every part of life.
Failing over and over again is something we all have to get used to; it’s going to happen a lot. I felt like I was failing at home, at school, at work and at life. I guess it’s true when they say that you have to hit rock bottom to bounce back.
I was looking at pictures and getting ready for the summer when I hit my rock bottom. I realized what I wanted in life and where I was at now. For the first time in a long time, I felt hope. There is not a free pass in life, and even if there were one it would most definitely be out of my budget.
Confidence is key in life. A little bit of it can help you accomplish something each and every day. When my confidence was at an all time low, I didn’t care about the numbers on the scoreboard or on the scale; all I wanted was to feel alive again. I stopped thinking about numbers and started to think about what I wanted to feel like when I woke up in the morning. The feeling I got during senior week, or when I was running track in school; the feeling of accomplishment, adrenaline, relief and happiness became what I wanted most in this world.
My uncertainties were forcing me to always take the definite route. I was no longer taking the chances that I needed to succeed because I was scared of failure. In reality, I was still failing though. I was failing my self, my dreams and I was failing the me who wanted this her entire life.
For me, the number one reason to get healthy this year was so that I no longer felt trapped in my own little bubble when all I wanted was to get out. I didn’t want to miss out on any of the experiences life had to offer, and I felt like my insecurities were forcing me to.
So, pop the bubble. Find your happiness in life again. Health means so many things, not just one.
Author: Kassidy Kreitz
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Author Bio: Kassidy Kreitz is a undergraduate student with a focus on Marketing in the sports and magazine industry. Kreitz grew up in the world of motorsports and currently gets behind the wheel her self.
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