So I have this flower that my ex boyfriend gave to me when we first met up and rekindled after meeting at a music festival. Honestly, that flower during our relationship in the beginning had many buds and bright colorful flowers. I would water the flowers and even when I forgot, they would still last. While our relationship started to disintegrate when we went long-distance, those buds started to fade and die out. I would keep watering that flower, and try to make it as beautiful as it once was, but now I realize you can’t force something that is not meant to be. During the last few months of our relationship there stood this one flower. When we broke up I just wanted to smash that flower and did not want it anymore because it reminded me of him, but now I realize I am that flower. At first I was confused why I kept watering it but now I have grasped that the flower is me. I am that strong, beautiful, single, flower. So, I decided to keep that single flower because to me it represents my strength. Then I bought new flowers, and after my incredible experience traveling to California meeting two incredible souls that have touched my life, I have these new flowers to focus on in terms of my dreams. Then I told my dad all of this and he told me he felt the same way about that one flower . He was watering it himself because to him the flower was me and he wanted to help me in my time of pain. Now I am aware that I am indeed that flower and have more flowers to expand upon. I’m going to grow and keep on growing.
Lately I have been really inspired by flowers and have been utilizing them in photo shoots like this to represent growth and myself. I ventured off to California to be inspired and make art and it was more than I had hoped and dreamed it would be. During this trip I felt as if I found a piece of myself. I was finally in California, a place I had dreamt of visiting since I was a little girl. My second day in California I made a journal entry and this is what is says:
Today I started out with this overwhelmed feeling and of all different energies that varied so much it confused me. But as I got out in the sunshine and put my toes in the water I felt liberated and inspired. As we were driving around the windy roads of California in a hippie van, the overwhelmed feeling burst as I connected with the crazy energy all around me. I started to cry. I just felt in awe about the way life works out. I was finally in California, a place I’ve dreamt of since I was a young girl and I’m here and doing this. I am making my own destiny. We traveled higher up the mountains, as the sun set, listening to rad music. The vibes were radiating mutually between Nikki, Rodney, Dev, and myself. We stopped at this bridge that was sandwiched between two gigantic mountains. We started taking photos on the bridge. I’ve never been around so much creativity and such organic people before. The feelings I’ve felt have been pure and happy. We ventured off into the woods laid down a blanket and determined our hang spot. We lit up a joint and had that good feeling type of high. Dev sparked some sage found in the woods and Nikki lit incense. We all held heads and started meditating and I had never felt more connected to others in my life. I just met these 3 individuals, but being with them was like being home.
I just felt at one with myself, that I was there manifesting my own destiny. The next day was when this photo shoot took place. It was the most powerful shoot I have ever done before. With my newfound soulmates, Nikki and Rodney, the three of us simply created magic. The energy throughout the shoot was so rich and intense that I physically was drained and speechless by the end. Art was created from our organic emotions. This shoot proves that we are all individual universes in our own being. Having such a deep connection with the team made the shoot so divine. This is definitely one of my favorite photo-shoots I have ever executed. This series does not only reflect individuality and spirituality, but dignity and strength. With a touch of spring feels and fashion the series resulted in exquisite creation.
After my experiences in California I have awoken the spirituality that rested within my soul. With this discovery I now have the power to execute my art in ways unimaginable before. I know I am simply a flower and my garden will continue to grow.
Author: Makayla Sullivan
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Author Bio: My name is Makayla Rose Sullivan. I am a 20 year old photographer from Boston Massachusetts. I love traveling, art, nature, fitness, and yoga. Photography gives me life. It is my most innocent addiction and when I go without it I simply desire more. I long to inspire others to stay true to their passions and follow their dreams.
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